I couldn't imagine not having Aunt Julie here to help during this time! There are tons of things to get used to.. like keeping track of how much water I have had!!!!! I will get better at this and I will do what I have to do... Tomorrow my Aunt Julie leaves and although I'll be sad to see her leave I know that she has helped me and given me the strength to get through this. Some of you may be wondering why I even did this.. well until you know what its like to be fat, fluffy, over weight, morbidly obese, not being able to sit in a chair comfortably, and I could go on.. but really you will never know and I don't care to explain it till you can understand. :)
I would have wanted to wait till Kevin got home but who wants to welcome someone home from a deployment ... with hi babe time to go have surgery and in be in crazy pain for a while... at least this way I'll have about a month of recovery time before I see him.
I wouldn't change what I have done and its crazy that I did this on Monday time went by so quickly!
Thursday, June 28, 2012
The Big Day
6-25-12 is the date I was essentially reborn with the chance of a life time to be the best me that I can be. Recently, my brother was talking to me about important dates. This was after dates were brought to his attention during a Sunday church service. Since talking with my brother I have done some searching about important dates in my life.
6-25-12 is my second birthday, the day I stood up against the fight I have had since childhood and firmly beat it down ! lol
I found this quite fitting~
The passing of time escapes no one; we are all subject to aging and the fear of mortality. For some, the idea of getting older is a stressful one; others will feel more amiable to changing and passing through the later decades of life. The best defense against the worries associated with contemplating time is to use the time you have effectively. Living happily and with purpose can be simpler with proper time management. Getting the most out of each day, and enjoying life to the fullest, will help you understand the importance of every moment..
My only option is to get the most out of each and every day that I have left here and enjoying this life to the fullest. My new life that is limitless with the opportunities that just around the corner.
6-25-12 is my second birthday, the day I stood up against the fight I have had since childhood and firmly beat it down ! lol
I found this quite fitting~
The passing of time escapes no one; we are all subject to aging and the fear of mortality. For some, the idea of getting older is a stressful one; others will feel more amiable to changing and passing through the later decades of life. The best defense against the worries associated with contemplating time is to use the time you have effectively. Living happily and with purpose can be simpler with proper time management. Getting the most out of each day, and enjoying life to the fullest, will help you understand the importance of every moment..
My only option is to get the most out of each and every day that I have left here and enjoying this life to the fullest. My new life that is limitless with the opportunities that just around the corner.
How I found MY surgeon
So starting where I left off I went several more years on physician monitored diets.. The best one was the Optifast program where I drank shakes and ate bars for about 6months.. but that didn't last long at all... then the Protein sparing modified fast... that was prolly the worse diet ever considering my dislike of meat..
Now that leaves us to after my move to Colorado. I started looking into the gastric bypass as an option with the coverage under tri-care insurance and worked on the path to surgery. This was the craziest adventure ever.. if there's one thing that I can stress over and over again is... check, double check, triple check your surgeon!!!
The first surgeon I had seen I thought checking out her history was good enough. I liked that she came from a large place and was close to home for the dr visits. The first of many mistakes to come from this surgeon was having a office staff of one person. Although this person was very nice his mistakes made it impossible for me to trust that I wouldn't be killed over something as crazy as paperwork.
After this crazy mess I started looking for a new surgeon. I came across The Denver Center for Bariatric Sugery and Dr. Snyder. This is the first time I found a surgeon who I didn't think was a jerk. He's very honest, open, and down to earth to actually help ME!!
Dr. Snyder's team was amazing from the begining. They knew how to deal with my insurance provider and was amazed with the poor work that has been completed.
What really made up my mind was an old lady in the waiting room. This lady was talking to me about how she loved Dr. Snyder. This was the only surgeon that was willing to help her out because her weight was trapping her into other medical conditions. Most surgeons only care about their success scores and do not want to risk looking good on paper. As I said before, Dr, Snyder is very different. He has confidence in his abilities and knows what he can do and how he can help others.
From start to finish it took less than 1 month to get everything set up for surgery!!!!!!!
Now that leaves us to after my move to Colorado. I started looking into the gastric bypass as an option with the coverage under tri-care insurance and worked on the path to surgery. This was the craziest adventure ever.. if there's one thing that I can stress over and over again is... check, double check, triple check your surgeon!!!
The first surgeon I had seen I thought checking out her history was good enough. I liked that she came from a large place and was close to home for the dr visits. The first of many mistakes to come from this surgeon was having a office staff of one person. Although this person was very nice his mistakes made it impossible for me to trust that I wouldn't be killed over something as crazy as paperwork.
- Spent 3 months requesting records from previous doctors. the information was completely irrelevant for my surgery approval because they were older than 1 year!!
- Mailed in paper work (or so he said) to the office located in California.... Ya my insurance provider only accepts fax and has a office located literally across the street from the physicians office... Needless to say my surgery was denied because they never received any supporting documentation to approve for the surgery. Actually , they only received a letter stating that I wanted to have surgery.. nothing more... sooo clearly they had to deny it.
- Ontop of all that I was left with the job to appeal with my insurance company.... the office staff and physician had no clue how to appeal (even when they said they worked with my insurance company before)
After this crazy mess I started looking for a new surgeon. I came across The Denver Center for Bariatric Sugery and Dr. Snyder. This is the first time I found a surgeon who I didn't think was a jerk. He's very honest, open, and down to earth to actually help ME!!
Dr. Snyder's team was amazing from the begining. They knew how to deal with my insurance provider and was amazed with the poor work that has been completed.
What really made up my mind was an old lady in the waiting room. This lady was talking to me about how she loved Dr. Snyder. This was the only surgeon that was willing to help her out because her weight was trapping her into other medical conditions. Most surgeons only care about their success scores and do not want to risk looking good on paper. As I said before, Dr, Snyder is very different. He has confidence in his abilities and knows what he can do and how he can help others.
From start to finish it took less than 1 month to get everything set up for surgery!!!!!!!
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
The begining.... of the journery to small me
As I lay awake in the hospital just under 2 days post op from
laparoscopic gastric bypass surgery that was done , I can't help but
to think about the first time I recognized I was over weight.
I distinctly remember 2 separate incidences for me. The first is when I was with my Aunt wanted we were going to the movies so she wanted dress me up. Took some time to find a outfit that would fit and I only wore it once. I remember feeling like I was too big and this was the largest clothes they had at the store. I think I was older than 7 years old and in the 1st grade.
Skip forward to 2nd grade when I moved to a new school. I didn't know anyone and I was being refereed to as fat. I didn't see my self that way until that point. Being the new fat girl just wasn't what I was expecting and hoping for.
Now skip to 8th grade and 9 grade, I moved my 8th grade year and stayed at that school until end of my freshman year. I think at this time I was on my first diet! I remember taking these pills to trap the fat and stop the absorption. This diet did work in losing some weight but it wasn't something that lasted or could keep doing.
On to my sophomore year in high school ... we moved back to the old school where I was told I was fat and by this point in time it was beyond true and I believed it. I remember my dad pressured me to do something about it and had taken me to Jenny Craig. I really didn't know what to think. Mixed emotions with going to a weight loss center and my parents taking me to drs to find out why im fat. That a definite damage to any self esteem I had. I did lose weight with Jenny Craig but this was an expense my parents could no longer afford the food that I need and food for the rest of the family.
From there the next diet I was placed on during my senior year of HS. It was a rx medication from my physician and that lasted a couple months before I had went away to college and stopped all the medication, which I later found out was a bad medication to be on.
This is good enough for my first blog post and the beginning of my journey next post I'll go over dieting a newborn! then my surgery. Today I get discharged and I couldn't be happier that I did this--- update 6-28-12 I obviously shouldn't work on this while under the influence of medication !!! no clue why I wrote dieting a newborn lol
I distinctly remember 2 separate incidences for me. The first is when I was with my Aunt wanted we were going to the movies so she wanted dress me up. Took some time to find a outfit that would fit and I only wore it once. I remember feeling like I was too big and this was the largest clothes they had at the store. I think I was older than 7 years old and in the 1st grade.
Skip forward to 2nd grade when I moved to a new school. I didn't know anyone and I was being refereed to as fat. I didn't see my self that way until that point. Being the new fat girl just wasn't what I was expecting and hoping for.
Now skip to 8th grade and 9 grade, I moved my 8th grade year and stayed at that school until end of my freshman year. I think at this time I was on my first diet! I remember taking these pills to trap the fat and stop the absorption. This diet did work in losing some weight but it wasn't something that lasted or could keep doing.
On to my sophomore year in high school ... we moved back to the old school where I was told I was fat and by this point in time it was beyond true and I believed it. I remember my dad pressured me to do something about it and had taken me to Jenny Craig. I really didn't know what to think. Mixed emotions with going to a weight loss center and my parents taking me to drs to find out why im fat. That a definite damage to any self esteem I had. I did lose weight with Jenny Craig but this was an expense my parents could no longer afford the food that I need and food for the rest of the family.
From there the next diet I was placed on during my senior year of HS. It was a rx medication from my physician and that lasted a couple months before I had went away to college and stopped all the medication, which I later found out was a bad medication to be on.
This is good enough for my first blog post and the beginning of my journey next post I'll go over dieting a newborn! then my surgery. Today I get discharged and I couldn't be happier that I did this--- update 6-28-12 I obviously shouldn't work on this while under the influence of medication !!! no clue why I wrote dieting a newborn lol
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